All Things

The truth is I'm a little scared. I've spent the last two years learning that being scared is okay. Now I just have to accept that I'm going to be. I find myself so often caught up in my own mistakes, and whether or not I'm about to make any more, that sometimes I forget that those are okay too. But it doesn't feel okay does it? Mistakes are probably the thing I least look forward to in life. I'm always worried that somehow I'm going to mess up not just my life but also others' lives around me. I take risks, and over-think the consequences. I don't doubt that God will use my broken mess for His beautiful glory, but I'd rather He used my whole and clean self instead. I have to balance the fear and the respect of danger with letting go and letting God handle it by remembering that I can't mess up His plans - No. Matter. What. God's grace flows most freely through the broken places, and my weaknesses uniquely equip me to carry his mercy and message to others. And all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). For He calls all who love Him, not just the "qualified", whole and clean; He qualifies the called. Sometimes I just have to stop worrying, wondering, and doubting, and have faith that things that will work out: All things, even my messes, because I can't mess up His plans, and He has my best in His deepest heart.